It had been a few months, and I knew something had changed. I didn’t want to believe it, I couldn’t bare the thought. I tried to explain his behaviour away, tried to think that perhaps our problems were circumstantial, and that we would soon overcome the rough patch. But it was not to be overcome, when it was my desire alone.
During that time, love songs rang through my mind like a depressed juke box, as if my soul was singing away its blues. I remember one of them being ‘Can’t stay away from you’ by Gloria Estefan, and another was by Vonda Shepherd, ‘Baby, don’t you break my heart slow’. It was strange because I hadn’t even listened to those songs for a long time. But my heart was already crying, because it knew that it was treacherously held.
I listened to those songs, and the lyrics told my story. His love was slipping through my hands, and there was nothing I could do to turn the tide. And even though I feared that it would destroy me for him to say the words – ‘it’s over’, it was the release I needed to survive the long road to heartbreak…
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