I loved you the moment I knew you were coming.  Even before the doctors confirmed your existence, I knew you were conceived.  I was expectant of you, hopeful for the joy you would bring…

But I was also anxious.  I was afraid to dream…to believe that my hope will become a reality.  I knew of many who held such hopes, but their expectations were dashed!  I also knew that your coming would change me in soooo many ways, more than I could have ever imagined.  I wasn’t sure that I was ready.

But most of all, I knew that life would never be the same with you in it.  That I would want it more than I did before, simply because you exist.  That my love for you may cause me to make some hard decisions…

Yet, I wanted you.  I longed for you, though I dared not dream.

Then you were conceived, and my heart was filled to overflowing with joy!  I was at peace and elated all at once.  I thanked my God for counting me worthy.  For giving me what I dared not ask.

But the expectation of your coming would be long.  Some would deter my…

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