Is that wrong?  Why do I feel bad for saying that…?  Or is it just me who imagines that any desire to be happy that is expressed is often met with “happiness is not the goal”.

Since when did happiness stop being the goal?  Did God call us to Himself so that He would make us unhappy?  So that we will be joyful in sorrow?  Is happiness not a part of the abundant life we were promised here on Earth?

Joy, they say.  I was one of them.  But sometimes, joy just doesn’t do, when it doesn’t make me smile…or laugh.  Joy comes from knowing that God is in control and everything will be alright, even though things may be falling apart right now.  But really, I don’t want to be falling apart at all!  Why can’t I just be happy?

Is it a sin to be happy?  Is it a sin to want to be?  Is it a sin to admit that I am not…?  That despite everything going on that is good in my life, I am just not happy most of the time?

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