“Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me” (John 15:4).

Last week Thursday, I published a response post (it’s deleted now), following a post by another lady on another platform (I won’t link it – no need), who I felt had been targeting me.  That day, I knew there was a better way to respond to this “attack”, but I wanted to do it my way…and I felt justified because, Jesus isn’t a pushover…  Yeah, it went along that reasoning.  There is such as thing as righteous indignation, after all…

Before I even began to write my post, my rant had began in my head.  And the Lord was cautioning me.  Several times, He asked if I loved the girl.  I would just laugh.  Love wasn’t what I was feeling, love wasn’t what I wanted.  I actually didn’t want to entertain His talk of love.  I just wanted to give it to her.

I said, “Lord, please stop restraining me.  Let me!!!”  I thought to myself, how bad can it be?  Let’s see where this goes…  If it doesn’t work out, it’s another lesson learned.

After I wrote it, I was on high!  I felt so good about myself, even though there was still a nagging feeling…

Read more at https://ufuomaee.blog/scared-of-myself/