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I am a 300 level student, who has never been in love. I have had brief crushes, but nothing serious. I am a leader in my Campus fellowship, and I recently discovered that I have feelings for another leader there. We have been friends for a while. We talk and hold hands, and he’s all lovey dovie with me, but he’s never said anything to me about having feelings for me. However, when we are in fellowship together, he is stiff with me and ignores me.
The other problem is there’s another member of our fellowship who he seems to like. He uses her name as his password and her pictures are all over his phone. But he has never told me anything about her or their relationship. I am trying to grow my own relationship with God, but I find myself getting jealous when I see them together, and I don’t like it. I don’t know the girl or anything about her, but when I see her I’m not happy. I don’t want to resent her, when she had done nothing wrong.
I’ve asked God to take away my feelings for him, but He hasn’t answered my prayer yet. I don’t know what to do, because he is a major distraction, and I just want to grow in my faith. It is affecting my studies and my spiritual growth. I think about him a lot, but I don’t think he feels the same thing, I don’t know what he feels about her, and I want to stop feeling this way.
What can I do? Please I need advise.
It seems you are already aware of the problems and the way you don’t want to feel. Problem seems to be that you are waiting on God to take away the feelings… If you let go, your heart will or might break, but it will heal and you will move on. But you are the one hanging on, it seems…