The other day, someone marveled at me, and asked how I come up with all my different posts…that looking at me, they would never have thought I had such knowledge. My answer to him, was also a lesson to myself, and I thought I would share it on my blog as the writing on the wall…as I do my other lessons.
Firstly, I credit everything to God, because on my own, I am nothing and without Christ, I can do nothing (John 15:5). God is the giver of wisdom (Prov 2:6, Jam 1:5). I learnt, when I was young, the importance of asking God for “wisdom, knowledge and understanding”. I believe that He has answered and continues to answer my prayer.
Writing has been my passion since I was a child. And I also loved to tell stories. Over the years, I have written a number of stories, poems, articles…many of them are lost to me now. When I started Ufuomaee.com, I dedicated it to God, to be a place where I share as He teaches and directs me. One of the things I felt I strongly received from Him at the time, was that everything would be new… there would be no previously written pieces, even if they were very good. I believe God wanted me to see that there was so much more to learn in our walk together…and that I shouldn’t glory in my former knowledge and understanding, but in His revelation.
Looking back on the blog, which has been very therapeutic for me, I can see the many ways I have grown, and I still marvel that there is still so much to discover and share. What often baffles me, when I read the posts of other Christian bloggers, is that we never seem to run out of things to say!!! And even still, I have hardly found another blogpost that expressed exactly the message one of my blogpost expresses. Yes, we are talking about Christ and Christianity, living by faith, but we have such unique insights into the same experience…and though we write about it in different ways everyday, we haven’t run out of material. Everyday, we are inspired by things happening in our lives and the world to share the message in a new, fresh and relevant way.
I actually have several posts in lieu of writing, some are already in drafts. I have stories to tell too. As I’ve given God control of this avenue, I am realising that He has a great deal in store that He would like to share. I am the one holding Him back! What He lacks are vessels to use. I am just one vessel, and even as I am…my time is divided between writing and running my charity and the new small webdesign business I am building on the side to earn a living. And don’t forget my daily duties as a wife and mother. If I was not so divided, and I could dedicate every minute of everyday to sharing God’s lessons through writing…I can’t begin to imagine the books I would write. It makes me understand more what Paul was saying to the Corinthians about why it is better to be single…so that we can be available to be used completely by God without distraction (1 Cor 7:32-35)!
Even though I recognise that many of the lessons I am now sharing are related to my experience as a humanitarian, entrepreneur, wife and mother, so that I am able to share lessons I may not have learnt before, I do believe that being free as a single person, God would be able to do so much more through me. I wouldn’t be as concerned with providing for my family, looking after the home, and other legitimate demands. Just recently, a couple of people sought me for counsel after reading my story The Church Girl, because they needed help and prayers with similar things that were going on in their lives. Now, it is obvious to me that there is a great avenue here for ministry, but I do not even have the time to handle the minute demand from this small ministry. It’s like I’m torn between two masters.
I recently prayed about my diverse passions, because lately, I have been giving more time to writing than before, and I feel a burden to learn and share more…so I wanted to know if I should give myself to this as a full-time ministry. God gave me a lesson about Solomon and David. David wanted to be the one to build God’s Temple, but God, though He appreciated David’s heart, rejected him. He said that too much blood had been shed by his hands, and He would use his son, Solomon, to build the temple instead, and He would bless him with peace on every side (2 Samuel 7).
Just like David, I didn’t know what I was asking and I am not able to handle the work that would be required of me in full-time ministry. I have too much baggage! I have already began to do much by taking on the burden of charity work, and the things I am doing are also to the glory of God’s Kingdom. Someone needs to do them. And whoever is doing that needs to be faithful to it. Just as whoever will do the needed work of full-time ministry needs to be undivided with it. I learnt from God that I need to be faithful to the work I have started, and give it due priority…and trust God to direct and bless it, just as He is directing and blessing me through this blog – and He shall (Phil 1:6).
So what you may be observing is what God is doing with the ‘inch’ I have given Him, through this blog! Yes, my whole life is a ministry, and you don’t have to remain single to do ministry for God, but there is a reason Jesus and Paul both said it is better, and that some willingly make themselves eunuchs, for the purpose of ministry (Matt 19:10-12). If you want to look deeper into this, you can read my study on 1 Corinthians 7.
God is taking advantage of this little bit I’ve dedicated to Him, to be an oracle in these times, and is stretching me in every way. And I am growing in my faith to trust Him to provide for all my needs even as I’ve given myself to His service through online ministry and charity. Fair Life Africa Foundation, my charity, is also dedicated to Him, and when I stop trying to do it in my own strength (unfortunately old habits die hard), relying on my own wisdom and support networks to grow the organisation, then He will show His power and take over, taking it where I could not imagine. I am learning to trust Him and be daily dependent on His provision as I am on His revelation. Though growth has been slow, and funding has been lacking…God has been faithful.
“If any man speak, let him speak as the oracles of God; if any man minister, let him do it as of the ability which God giveth: that God in all things may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom be praise and dominion for ever and ever. Amen” (1 Pet 4:11).
As Christians, we are all called to be oracles of God and ministers in His Kingdom. My challenge to you is that you too should give God control of your life and everything you do. If you are struggling to give Him control of everything…just start with an inch! You will be amazed with what God can do with it. Before long, you will throw it all at His feet and say, “take it all Lord, use it and me to Your glory“! That is my prayer for every one of you.
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