I wrote this poem in the night, for a friend of mine who is hurting so badly in her marriage. I also know the burden and pain of carrying a Cross and I have counselled too many women going through terrible marriages, that sometimes, I feel like all my words are inadequate. This is a cry out to God to come to our aid and deliver us from all these troubles…or give us the grace to bear it day by day.
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What is this You have called me to, Lord?
What sort of mental, physical and emotional suffering is this?
What is this Cross You have asked me to bear?
What purpose does it serve?
Lord, please tell me, because I don’t know…
I don’t understand it.
I don’t understand why You would expect me to endure such misery.
Because of what?
What future glory can be worth this hellish existence?
Lord, I am human. Just flesh and blood.
Yes, I have a spirit too. But it’s not my spirit that hurts…
Every day, Lord, I wonder, when will this end?
When will the joy You promised begin?
When will I begin to see this Vision that only You can?
And will that ever make it okay?
I long to see You. I long to hear Your voice.
I long to feel Your touch…and know that You’re not just an idea.
An idea I have made real to make sense of all of this…
I long to feel Your angels and to be in Your real presence…
To be assured that this Faith I have believed is real…
And worth my sacrifice and pain;
Worth my continual denial of self.
I see so many others suffering,
And I have run out of words to console them.
I have run out of signs to show them.
I have run out of strength to defend Your truth,
When their truth is that they are dying, in every sense…
And the thing they believe they want or need,
You have denied them.
How can I show them that it pays to be good and faithful,
When the good suffer worse for faithfulness…?
You said this world is not our home,
But they don’t want to hear that…
They want to live. Now. And smile. Today.
I want to live. Now. And smile. Today.
But if You will show Your face…
If You will do something…anything to convince me that
None of this is indeed worth comparing to what You have in store…
Then I can hang in there…another day.
It’s one day at a time, Lord Jesus.
Just one day at a time.
Copyright © Ufuomaee
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Grace and Truth 
Apt….
Sometimes we need to just open up our heart…but what does that really mean?
So many questions…
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So many questions indeed. And like Yolanda sings…we just need a word from God. Not an answer from man.
Thanks for reading and commenting, Ejay 🙂
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Is that a picture of a yellow brick road? These people are clearly waiting in expectancy. Why did you choose this picture?
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I chose the picture because it has the Cross, and it has people begging God to relieve them.
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Oh I tried looking at the picture in its entirety but no luck there.
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From my home page, you can view the picture properly, or click to view it on a different browser, if you want a clearer view of it.
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Thank to sharing this I can see women reading this poem and getting more strength to press through.
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Amen! I just pray that God shows up for every woman and man hanging on to Him for deliverance from their suffering. Thanks for reading and commenting.
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I’ve been begging God to show up. This touched me so so deeply.
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Bless God! Please Sister, hang on to your Hope 🙂
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My God, God will show up. I going to keep the faith and believe that All things are working out for my good because that is what the word saids. I find God word to be true if I keep my mind on him he will keep me in perfect peace in the mist of it all. I have learned to encourage myself constantly and stay in his word speaking his word back to him as I pray. He said his word will not return back to him void. I put on some good praise and worship music that take my to that place of peace. Marriage can be very hard even as a believer and you know that you know God will bring you out somehow someway victorious. We are being cursed like grape TD Jakes Book. I’m going to hang in and see what the end will be. In the name of Jesus. That was a beautiful poem.
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Thanks Patricia 🙂 Your comment blessed me too x
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